A story about overcoming procrastination 

I bought a second-hand keyboard on eBay to help with the back pain from hunching over my laptop too much.

It came and it took me a few days to open the package.

It needed batteries.

It took me a few more days to get them.

I try the keyboard, it works.

I try it again a few days later and realise some keys are broken.

I apply for a refund even though the seller doesn’t accept them.

It gets approved.

I plan to go to the post office to drop it off.

I don’t go.

It becomes this insurmountable task that feels doomed to failure.

I avoid.

I feel despair every time I remember this task or see the keyboard.

I eventually get curious about why this is the case.

Like what memory is driving this avoidance?

What pops up is my first ever online package - that I never returned.

The sense of failure from that still lingers.

It’s coded in my body as this is what happens when I try to return things

and is unconsciously pulling me to repeat the pattern as it feels familiar.